it's that time of year AGAIN!

I'm already thinking about Christmas cards!  I'm crazy!  I love doing holiday cards and love receiving new photos from family and friends each season.  I save every one and love looking back over the years.  Here's a few Shutterfly cards that I love:

I can't choose!  Head on over to www.shutterfly.com to check out their amazing holiday card selection!

happy anniversary to my handsome groom

Four years ago today, I married my best friend.  My whole world.  It was a perfectly bright, sunny, HOT day much like today.  I am mindful of what a blessing our marriage is and how lucky we are to have one another.  I pray this year is filled with strength, connection, renewed faith and love in one another.

I love you!  You are the wonder that is keeping the stars apart.....

i carry your heart with me (i carry it in
my heart) i am never without it (anywhere
i go you go, my dear; and whatever is done
by only me is your doing, my darling)
                                  i fear
no fate (for you are my fate, my sweet) i want
no world (for beautiful you are my world, my true)
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life; which grows
higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart (i carry it in my heart)

e.e. cummings

mr & mrs jason fuller!!!! woobity woo!

This weekend was absolutely legendary...a total blast.  My feet are aching from breakin it down on the dance floor.  We had too too much fun.  We spent the weekend with our best and oldest friends and were blessed to make brand new friends in the process.  We could not be happier for Jason and Heidi.  Heidi was an absolutely stunning bride.  So naturally beautiful, so laid back and her beaming smile never left her face all day.  Jason is a brother to me and it melts my heart to know they have found love and forever friendship in each other.

Jason and Heidi, we love you so much.  We're looking forward to a lifetime of shenanigans together and can't wait til our little ones can grow up as best friends too.  Woo WOO!!

kyle & alisha get hitched!

Kyle and Alisha, our darling best friends, were married 8.6.11.  What a joyful day!!!  We look forward to watching them grow in love and marriage together.

Congratulations!!!!!

whitney 1st bday

This is a month late, but this cuteness doesn't go out of style!!!

summer blog catch up time!

I am a blog slacker.  Sorry!  We had a crazy busy summer, but had a ton of fun!  I'll start off with our Colorado trip in the end of June (which sadly feels like lightyears ago...)  I miss the mountains!

Some pics from our first moments seeing the splendor of Rocky Mountain National Park.  The snowy peaks took the words right outta your mouth.  The air was fresh, the mountains many, we didn't know where to look, everything was so lovely.

L to R first row: the Aspens waving their 'spirit fingers' with each breeze, Dan lifting off of a mountain, our obligatory Chaco pic (we had shorts on but snowwas on the ground...)

L to R second row: friends we met along the trail, beautiful lake, me lifting off our trail! Zoom!

L to R third row:  self portrait on one of our last nights in RMNP,  my Chaco tan, cute pic in downtown Boulder

L to R first row: sunny goodness of Chautauqua in Boulder, CO,  more Rockies

L to R second row: RMNP entrance sign, another great shot of Chautauqua

We loved our hotel, it was right on the Fall River, which was ice cold and raging!  The nights were crisp and lovely, the days were hot and bright.  We explored downtown Boulder, Ft Collins and visited old pals the Joneses in Co. Springs.  We got to meet the Reener Beaner, Irene and see our favorite little dude, Clare again.

We loved our roadtrip and can't wait to venture West again.

keep in the sunlight

Apologies for the blogging delay!  The sun is too bright and I'd rather spend my days playing outside!  

UPDATE!  (read part 1 first if you haven't already...)

-Surgery went well.  Not how we thought it'd turn out, but still successful.  The so-called uterine 'septum' could not be removed because it was too vascular.  (Too much blood flow and it would have caused too much scarring/damage if it were removed).  Dr WM said it would have been 'reckless' to attempt to remove the seputm.  During the surgery, Dr WM found something she was not looking for, which were uterine or endometrial polyps.  These little buggers interfered with conception and/or disrupted implantation which contributed to our lack of pregnancy and our early losses.  She took those stinkers out and did a little 'gut rehab' as Dan calls it.  While the hysteroscope was in she did a d&c to clean up the lining and make sure the polyps were out.  So, basically the doc said my uterus is not bicornuate, not septate, but not really didelphys.  She's calling it a 'didelphys variant' because a true 'double uterus' should also have two cervices, and I only have the one.  Thankfully. :)  The structure may or may not cause us trouble conceiving, we'll just have to see.  It sounds like this little polyps were the issue.

Recovery was not so bad.  The first few days were rough with the balloon in, but my amazing mama and super husband kept me cozy and in good company.  The outpouring of support and love from friends, family, strangers filled my heart up.  It makes me feel a little less alone knowing I'm not the only one in my little world that's struggled to start a family.  I am unbelievably blessed.

Next step, saline sonogram this Friday.  We may get the green light to start trying this week.  But.  But.  BUT....  I'm nervous.  So is Dan.  I cannot describe how freeing it was to have surgery, knowing it was going to actively fix a problem while we could sit back and not worry about trying.  Trying to conceive for a year is rough.  (I know people do it for years and years so I better count my blessings, but it is what it is.)  It's emotionally draining, physically demoralizing and completely all consuming.  We've tried to keep a light heart about it, but in order to be fully invested, you must commit to multiple doctor appointments per week, blood tests here, ultrasounds there, supplementing with progesterone, and so on and so on.  It gets exhausting.  I want to do something to mark a fresh start.  Something ritualistic, something cleansing.  Being in nature?  A deep meditation?  A new cleanse/exercise regime? I'm looking for ideas to prepare ourselves spiritually, physically, emotionally to head down this road again.  It feels wrong to just jump back in without processing this crazy year and connecting with one another and staying strong together on this journey ahead.  

Thank you for your blessings, your emails, phone calls, messages, songs, everything you have done to make us feel so very loved.  We. Are. BLESSED!

I'll leave you with a lovely quote by Ben Franklin...

'Do not anticipate trouble, or worry about what may never happen. Keep in the sunlight.'

And from one of my favorite Etsy artists, Katie Daisy

Courtesy of the Wheatfield on Etsy